Hi,

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"You have to have the courage to put yourself out there.”

That was my main takeaway from Entry #10: Into the Circle of Light Podcast. I had to pause and take time for introspection to truly understand whether I am living an authentic life or not. This has been my primary focus for the past few months. I have found myself being stubbornly unmoving, especially when it comes to anything that does not feel aligned with who I am.

I have been very intentional with my decisions. However, even with a strong grasp of my purpose, the constant noise and distractions of life make it easy to get pulled off track and overthink my art.

I take my work seriously, but the moment I begin treating creative expression like a rigid, serious project, it ceases to be play. So this is me evolving into a more relaxed, play-filled artist.

I am putting an end to overthinking and allowing the flow to take over. When things do not look right initially, I need to offer myself the grace to embrace this period of discovery and stay open to expressing myself freely.

This is me, fully embodying my Leo qualities.

LIGHT AND SHADOW

Light and shadow. The driving forces of the universe. The Sun and the Moon; the Masculine and the Feminine.

If there is one thing common to all stories, it is the dance between these two forces—both belonging to the same unity, yet residing at opposite poles. It is this duality that creates tension, drama, and the understanding that each, though opposite, empowers the other. It is a grand narrative that remains endlessly fascinating, mysterious, and intriguing—a subject I am deeply drawn to explore.

What is in darkness that creates light, and what is in light that creates darkness?

Most of the time, darkness is misunderstood. Yet, it is in these quiet moments that we are most in tune with ourselves, our thoughts, and our truths. It is where we learn and grow the most. In these shadows, seeds germinate and ideas come to life. Darkness is a neutral potential—without it, we would never be able to recognize light for what it truly is.

Light, on the other hand, is formed, intentional, and structured energy—the physical manifestation of spirit, will, and fire. There are different frequencies of light: at its lowest frequency, shadow and corruption are birthed, while at its highest, it is pure heaven.

If there is one key truth I have learned, it is that intention or will is the deciding vector. If the vector is aligned with darkness, the outcome follows; if it is aligned with good, the output is good. This echoes the essence of Philippians 4:8, which perfectly reflects the necessity of disciplined thought:

“Brothers and sisters, think about the things that are good and worthy of praise. Think about the things that are true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected.”

Living in this practice requires a constant check and balance—catching ourselves when we begin to slip into lower frequencies like hatred, guilt, shame, or pity. It means observing how our emotions act, monitoring where the mind strays, regulating the information we consume, and anchoring ourselves to strong, righteous principles.

If we choose to live this way, we cultivate heaven in our minds, in our bodies, in our midst, in our communities, and in our world. This is where the true shift begins: a renewal of the mind, a necessary alchemy of transformation.

Ascension on Delay

I have had the Ascension Series for almost two years now, yet I have not put it out for exhibition.

Why, you ask?

It had the look and the messaging I was aiming for, and most importantly, the feeling I was searching for. However, because it was part of my experimental pieces, there were technical flaws that I simply could not ignore. I was told by a papier-mâché expert that adding salt to a flour-paste mixture was enough to prevent mold. While that may be true, other references and mentors made me realize that this method was simply unacceptable if I wanted the series to be archival.

And so, I held back. I stored the pieces away for a while, only using them for photoshoots and keeping them for sentimental reasons, as they were the very first batch of the series. The stubborn bull in me insisted on taking my time to prep this series, refusing to release it until I was absolutely certain of its durability.

The Lesson Found

While that process is still underway, this experience has taught me how deeply I value quality and my own instincts. It also showed me how much time I squander by waiting and feeling things out until the "truest" time for them to emerge. Hopefully, now that I am older, I won’t do that as much. To be completely honest, I was lagging behind instead of locking in. At this stage in my life, I need to be more serious, and I guess that is one of the beauties of aging.

The ideas that have stayed with me the longest have taken root deep within my heart. Meanwhile, the ones that merely occupied my time without truly resonating with my soul have already withered and died. The ideas I hold onto now have stood the test of time, proving themselves worthy of my energy, focus, soul, and practically my life.

Moving Forward

I have plenty of artistic plans for this series—something I am genuinely looking forward to building. The fact that my interest and curiosity haven't wavered only proves that this was exactly what I was meant to do. Besides, I need to put this out into the world because the other projects in my mind are starting to pile up.

Exciting times are coming.